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Saturday, 18 September 2004

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Before These Crowded Streets
By Dave Matthews Band
Pig
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hiiiyaaa,

well today has been crraapppp! let me just tell you.. i woke up really early cause i thought we were going to visit a college today, but we ended up not going cause the weather is so bad and my mom didnt feel good anyways.. soo i went back to sleep and woke up around 10.

and i've been bored out of my mind ever since. well acctually i was occupied at noon for about a half hour because i got Keith Urban tickets haha. but after that i've been bored outta my mind. my dad ordered food from Pizzaria Uno so we went to pick that up.. well he dropped me off at acme on the way so i could cash my check and see what time i'm workin tomorrow... i talked to Kathleen, Paul, and Bruce for a little while i was waiting for my dad to come back.

i have no idea where tara is, chris and paul are going to a stupid party tonight that they dont even really wanna go to, and everyone else seems to be busy. grrrrr. I WANNA DO SOMETHINNNGGGGG!!!! ugh.. well hopefully i'll find something to do... blahh... peace out <3

Wednesday, 15 September 2004

Currently Playing
Before These Crowded Streets
By Dave Matthews Band
CRUSH -- MY FAVORITE SONG
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hiiiyyaaaa... jeez i havent written in a LONG time.. since before school started i believe...

well.. a lot has happened since then! for one.. we started school... its not THAT bad... but its still school ya kno? but yea.. so thats goin pretty ok so far...

chris and i broke up it sucked... but ya kno... it happens i guess... i'm ok about it now i think... but i still dont think he is, but i'm not sure cause i havent talked to him in a couple days so who knows whats going on now..

i used to be pissed about this.. but it kinda just makes me laugh now... like, it seems like hes trying to make me jealous... he might not be, but thats just what it seems like... i dunno its jsut weird. but the one thing that did piss me off was that .. when i read his journal thing to see what was going on ... he wrote about how he was at a party or something and the girls were all over him n stuff (thats not the part that pissed me off) ... and then he said something like "it was nice to have people physically attracted to me.. cause i never really got that from erin.." THAT pissed me off... i was just like ... OMG are you fucking kidding me????????? i'm sorry i didnt wanna have sex with you, but i DO have morals. UGH... i dunno it just made me so angry that he said that. but yea.. i havent talked to him for a while... but usually when i do hes drunk.. ugh. and i dont kno if he knows.. but he makes me feel like crap when hes drunk and talks to me. i always end up crying.. always. it sucks. but anyways... lets talk about happier things....

i'm listening to DMB right now... i dunno why i never listened to them before... cause i really like them now!!! i'm like obsessed!! they're like all i've listened to for the past 2 or 3 months hahah. and i'm dying to go to a concert!!! There is one up at Penn State.. and i was invited to go n everything... but my mom wouldnt let me because its too far away grrr! cause we would've had to sleep over... and we would have stayed with Paul's cousins so its not like we would be somewhere unfamiliar... well it would have been for everyone but paul, but still lol. oh well... they said they'd take me to another one because they think hes gonna stop touring soon so they said i have to come with them in the spring or something lol.

OH GOOD NEWWWSSSSS.......... I JUST GOT MY HANSON STUFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yyyaaaayyy!!!!!! i got a white beater that has pink headphones on it... and then the Acoustic Live DVD! i'm so excited!!!! hehe.

alright well i've got lots of homework to do... soooo peace out dogs! <3

Saturday, 28 August 2004

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Before These Crowded Streets
By Dave Matthews Band
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heyyy therreee

i dont think i've written in a while... this whole journal/diary thing is getting old. i had my other one forrr 3 or 4 years i believe. so i'm kinda gettin tired of this... but i guess i should just keep one anyways.. cause i seem to write in it when i have no one to talk to hah ..

so yeaa... today was pretty fun... i worked (well that part wasnt fun lol) but oh well haha. then i came home n hung out for a bit. i had kinda overbooked myself for tonight so i just invited dommy to come mini golfing with paul and i haha. that was fun.. i didn't lose!!! paul got 51, i got 55, and dom got 56... woooo! i dont suck THAT bad haha

so then after that we drove down towards west chester to visit chris a. at work (subway lol) we hung out there till about 10:20 n then we had to get home so we would be home before curfewww blahh haha. but yea it was pretttyyy funn.

tomorrow i'm workin 530-10:15... but we're only open till 10 on sundays so i'm not too sure whats up with that *shrugs* oh well. we'll just have to see.

i dunno if i said this already, but chris and i are on a break it kinda sucks.. but i think in the long run it will be good for both of us.. hopefully. i just.. i guess i want him to know that he will be ok without me ya kno? cause i dont want him to be like i'm gonna kill myself or something.. i hope he wouldnt be like that and i think i also need for myself to be ok without him. i dunno why, but i just feel like i need to be ok with being by myself or something i dunno. i'm weird. lol.

it kinda sucks to think that like.. if we broke up all the way we probly wouldnt be able to be friends... well like, i would want to try, but i have to admit it would be really hard not to kiss him... cause i'm just so used to doing it ya kno? *shrugs* but yea.. so hopefully this will all work out for the best. wish me luck!!

peace out <333

Wednesday, 25 August 2004

why hello theree,

well... interesting times lately... chris and i are "breaking" at the moment. it kinda sucks... but i think it'll be good. for me at least... i really need this. i have a lot to think about.

other than that nothing really different has been going on... i've been workin a lot.. 7 1/2 hours today and 8 1/2 tomorrow.. blahhh... but today went pretty fast for it being so long... so hopefully tomorrow will to. but it sucks because i can't do shit tomorrow. i could have tonight, but no one was doin anything *shrugs* oh well.. m/b thursday or friday or somethin...

ok everyone has to try starbucks ice cream because it is totally orgasmic.. and uumm.. i'm obsessed hehe. alright well... i'm gonna go.. peace out homiesss <3